Good.

Good things come to those who are great. You, my friend, are far from great.

You'd love to be great, hell, you'd love to be good. You crave it, desire it, need it. You need that spark of goodness in you, you need to live at least thinking you're one of the great ones. But no, unfortunately you aren't and you'll never be. 

You're lucky to have your life the way it is now, you're lucky to not have as many bad things happen to you as they happen to others. But you take it all for granted, you know you don't deserve it but you've got it even for a little while and instead of cherishing it, you destroy it, but that's how it's meant to be. 

You are your own worst enemy. You will inevitably be the one to destroy everything good you've ever had. It will be no ones fault but your own and you can't stop it, no, its your destiny. You were built to destroy all the goodness in your life because that's what you were made for.

You aren't good, you don't deserve good things, your bad, you deserve bad things, and what is worse then giving someone good things and having no one but themselves be the reason why those things are no more. You've been given sneak peeks at an amazing life, one that you'll see others around you live, one you'll spend your entire life dreaming of, one that you will forever hope for, and one you'll never get.

And it'll be no ones fault but your own. You were created to self sabotage your entire life. You will be given all the things you could ever want only for the sole reason its taken away is yourself. You will learn and live to hate yourself, despise yourself, wish to be anyone else. All of it will be your fault, because you don't deserve good things, because you are your own worst enemy.